son of st jacobs

i've been trying to find out what i want
what my purpose is on this earth
maybe i have no purpose
maybe my purpose will reveal itself sometime in the future
maybe i don't need a purpose
my purpose might be just to exist
to live.
i have to stop staying alive
and start living for once
or have i done this all along?
is staying alive what i need to do?
for now, all i know is this..
nothing ever is the way you want it to be
but maybe we don't need it to be that way
because most of the time, everything works out just fine in the end
don't you think?